For your ways are in full view of the Lord, and he examines all your paths. (Proverbs 5:21 NIV)
Now that I know God loves me as His child and accepts me in my brokenness, this verse takes on a whole new meaning.
The way I live my life, the manner by which I walk through the difficulties and temptations, are in full view of God. He sees it all, everything. Nothing is hidden. That used to freak me out. How disappointed He must be in me. Not only does He see everything, He examines it, which means He weighs my choices, the ruts I find myself in, the consistent struggles I face.
But that word “examine” means a great deal more than just weighing my actions or pondering them. It actually means “to make level, to even out.” He doesn’t see everything in my life and then sits back and judges me. That’s how I use to see Rod and many still see God that way. But He actually takes initiative to help us, too even out the rough spots. He patiently endures our mistakes and sin, and comes alongside and gives us wisdom to live better.
I don’t know how you feel about that, but I am extremely overwhelmed with gratitude for His amazing grace and wisdom over my life.